Thursday, 14 February 2013

The Road Not Taken

I was so upset. I should listen to my guts. To my inner voice! Why would I ignore my own heart? I should be the one who realize that this isn’t going anywhere. Why would I lied to myself and keep convincing myself that everything is going to be alright? Going to be fine? And yet, the reality it is not getting any better. It’s getting bad, no, in facts it’s getting worse every single day I breathe. I’m feeling restless; exhausted by the facts I can’t change anything. For these years, I thought I’m not going to do the same mistake again and yet, here I’ am standing on the wrong path again. Lost, miserable, terrible road! Should I turn my head and looking back? Or should I choose left? Or right? Or should I just standing here while looking at other people passing me by? What wrong with me? And I can’t remember when is the last time I can’t make a decision for myself..No, you’re lying again.  You always can’t make a decision by yourself! You always flow with the wind. You never make any decision. Oh dear..Then is it time to make decision? The real one? Can I trust myself to do the right things? Of course I can…but I’m scared, my mind was spinning and I’m confused. My mind keeps denying my inner voice. Which one should I trust? Oh wait; I can’t even differentiate both..!  There goes the circle..I always run around in unknown circle. It’s breaking my heart for not knowing me.  Then here I’ am still..Standing in the middle of nowhere..when I’m going to move on? I have no idea, maybe I should stand a little longer..a little long..long…long…long way…

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim
Because it was grassy and wanted wear,
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I marked the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I,
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

~ Robert Frost

Sunday, 5 February 2012

Love never fails!

Love speaks beautiful languages, different types of languages. Love speaks body languages, speaks when eyes meeting eyes, eyes meeting smile, deep stare sent a wave of understanding. No one understands a real love is. If yes, there will be no violence in love. People hurts the one they love the most, even thou they are deep in love with them. Love is a crazy things, it bring madness, hatred, happiness, tears, smiles, it hurt, welcoming laugh, bring you into confusion and into a real certainty. Love, the sweet things makes world peaceful. Love, the mad things make world a hell. Love brings marriages, love leads to suicide.

Love teaches us to give and less love lead us to be selfish. Love formed in any forms. Some people thought love can be when you wish the best for someone and love can be when you cursed them for leaving you. Well, you thought you are in love when you keep someone for yourself when they no longer love you. Poor things, you are only being selfish. Some people said; love is the real love when you have the courage to let them go, let them live their life with happiness. You are not good enough for them and wish the best for them. Yes, life is hard, to love is hard. No such things as piece of cake in love. Love is the most powerful medicine and yet powerful to kill, to eat you inside alive.

Love save people lives but equally kills at the same times. Remember, love hurts because we let it be. Love never hurts people. When they do, you are no longer in love..its called obsession.  Love, the beautiful things brighten our days with a new hope, new dreams. Love darkens our days with hatred, anger, jealously.  Whatever it is, a real love is a love that not selfish, standing for someone with such a true love, in the end, love is matter after all.   For those who start to lose faith in love, please remember, love never fails in any circumstances.  

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.  It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and it keeps no record of wrongs.  Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.  It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, and always perseveres.  Love never fails. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there are tongues, they will be stilled; where there is knowledge, it will pass away."

Wednesday, 18 January 2012


I believe that most of us have our own pets or maybe dreaming to get one..dogs, cats, birds, fish,and many more..well, in my case..I choose dog! I'm a big fan of DOG!!!Maybe some of you wonder, why dog???

Well, here's the things that you all should know about dog..dogs have ability to learn, think and solving problems. They are also the only animals that has the ability to see right into your eyes and trying to understand you by looking deep into your eyes. Heck, is that trueeee???Try it yourself..and just to let you know, i've experienced that so i have faith in this.

Like my dog, I called her Panda. Panda has this bad habits that makes all of my family members felt uneasy. She loves entering the house and sits just beside us while we're eating, and she will be very busy shoving our legs with her paw begging for leftovers food. I think she is very brilliant dog!!! Whenever my family members shouted at her and asking her to get out from the house, she will sits down (practically lay down) and look at you with her big rounded brown eyes and it was like, "please let me stay..pleaseeeeee???"..well, let me ask you..when you see a dog eyes with that cute and begging face, will you still shouting at her and maybe hitting her so that she will go out??Of course not right??? our case, we have to carry her outside because she will never wants to moveeeee!!!Well, she will only go outside voluntary when its comes to my mom or my big for me, my big sister and my dad..Panda will just look at us and showing that begging face..well, as expected..we are always fell for that looks!She just a very adorable dog!!!

Panda currently has 6 puppies..(but 4 of them already adopted by a good and responsible family) and what I loves about Panda is that she is a very responsible mom. hehehe...what I'm trying to say here is that like this one time, my other dog called Lungayo (because he is soooo big & tall), Turbo (called that because he is very fast and was  ran over by car twice but still okay until now) and Golunau (Because his fur is very smooth) bullies Panda's puppies. Well, the puppies was scared and was barking and hiding to defend themselves. Well, you know what..Panda actually defends her puppies, she covers her puppies while barking furiously at the others dog. Well, that touched me..even though she only an animal, she still have a "mommy human" instinct. 

Here is the good news about animals lovers. I'am very pleased to inform you all that our government has a new law regarding about animals cruelty which says that anyone guilty of an offence of cruelty to animals shall be liable to a fine of RM200 or imprisonment for a term of six months or both . Well, for animals hater, please think back before you do a cruelty on animals, you might going to regret it !!!Don't you ever dare to run over any dogs or cats or what so ever animals. Remember, they are creatures without brain..we are human with brain, so use your brain and be extra careful when you're driving. 

So that's it so far..see you all again next time..Enjoy reading and make this a thought for today..see yaaaa...

Saturday, 17 December 2011


I got this from internet and found out it is very good for all of us to read and value our friendship..enjoy and make it a thought for today..
when I was a freshman in high school, I saw a kid from my class was walking home from school. His name was Kyle. It looked like he was carrying all of his books. I thought to myself, "Why would anyone bring home all his books on a Friday? He must really be a nerd."
I had quite a weekend planned (parties and a football game with my friends tomorrow afternoon), so I shrugged my shoulders and went on.
As I was walking, I saw a bunch of kids running toward him. They ran at him, knocking all his books out of his arms and tripping him so he landed in the dirt. His glasses went flying, and I saw them land in the grass about ten feet from him. He looked up and I saw this terrible sadness in his eyes.

My heart went out to him. So, I jogged over to him and as he crawled around looking for his glasses, and I saw a tear in his eye. As I handed him his glasses, I said, "Those guys are jerks. They really should get lives." He looked at me and said, "Hey thanks!" There was a big smile on his face. It was one of those smiles that showed real gratitude.

I helped him pick up his books, and asked him where he lived. As it turned out, he lived near me, so I asked him why I had never seen him before. He said he had gone to private school before now.

I would have never hung out with a private school kid before. We talked all the way home, and I carried some of his books. He turned out to be a pretty cool kid. I asked him if he wanted to play a little football with my friends. He said yes. We hung out all weekend and the more I got to know Kyle, the more I liked him, and my friends thought the same of him.
Monday morning came, and there was Kyle with the huge stack of books again.
I stopped him and said, "Boy, you are gonna really build some serious muscles with this pile of books everyday!" He just laughed and handed me half the books.

Over the next four years, Kyle and I became best friends. When we were seniors, we began to think about college. Kyle decided on Georgetown, and I was going to Duke.

I knew that we would always be friends, that the miles would never be a problem. He was going to be a doctor, and I was going for business on a football scholarship. Kyle was valedictorian of our class. I teased him all the time about being a nerd. He had to prepare a speech for graduation. I was so glad it wasn't me having to get up there and speak. Graduation day, I saw Kyle. He looked great. He was one of those guys that really found himself during high school. He filled out and actually looked good in glasses. He had more dates than I had and all the girls loved him. Boy, sometimes I was jealous.
Today was one of those days. I could see that he was nervous about his speech. So, I smacked him on the back and said, "Hey, big guy, you'll be great!" He looked
at me with one of those looks (the really grateful one) and smiled. "Thanks," he said.

As he started his speech, he cleared his throat, and began. "Graduation is a time to thank those who helped you make it through those tough years. Your parents, your teachers, your siblings, maybe a coach...but mostly your friends. I am here to tell all of you that being a friend to someone is the best gift you can give them. I am going to tell you a story."
I just looked at my friend with disbelief as he told the story of the first day we met. He had planned to kill himself over the weekend. He talked of how he had cleaned out his locker so his Mom wouldn't have to do it later and was carrying his stuff home. He looked hard at me and gave me a little smile.
"Thankfully, I was saved. My friend saved me from doing the unspeakable." I heard the gasp go through the crowd as this handsome, popular boy told us all about his
weakest moment. I saw his Mom and dad looking at me and smiling that same grateful smile. Not until that moment did I realize it's depth. Never underestimate the power of your actions. With one small gesture you can change a person's life. For better or for worse.

God puts us all in each other's lives to impact one another in some way..but sadly not all people react the same thing. People keep thinking about one help me when i need one, so why should i? Right? But remember, what come around goes around..sooner or later, you will need the same helping hands. So acts before you regrets it.

I kept thinking..why would people want to kill themselves...then I found out the conclusion..we are too late to help them, we are not there when they need us the most. We are so busy with our own business that we forget we are all live in the same roof. We are family..but yet we ignore people that need the helping hands the most..

A real friend is a person who is there for you when you need him, it helps you when you have a problem, it keeps your secrets, shares things with you, bares you with all your qualities and defects. Of course, you have to treat all your friends the way you want to be treated and you always have to tell your friend the true, this is the only way to keep a real friend.

How about from today on, lets start our day with smile on our faces and asking someone "hey, are you okay?"..

Thursday, 4 August 2011

I'm sorry, the magic words..

If I knew it would be the last time that i'd see u fall asleep,i would tuck you in more tightly and pray the lord your soul to keep.if I knew it would be the last time that I see u walk out the door,i would give u a hug and kiss and call u back for one more.if I knew it would be the last time i'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,i would video tape each action and word,so I could play them back day after day.if I knew it would be the last time,i could spare an extra minute or two to stop and say ' I love u ' instead of assuming,you would know I do.if I knew it would be the last time I would be there to share your day,well.i'm sure you'll have so many more,so I can let just this one slip away.for surely there's always tomorrow to make up for an oversight,and we always get a second chance to make everything right.there will always be another day to say our ' I love you ' and certainly there's another chance to say our ' anything I can do?'' But just in case I might be wrong,and today is all I get,i'd like to say how much I love u and I hope we never forget.tomorrow is not promised to anyone,young or old alike,and today maybe the last chance u gdt to hold your loved one if you're waiting for tomorrow,why not do it today?for if tomorrow never comes,you'll surely regret the day that u didn't take that extra time for a smile, a hug, or a kiss and u were too busy to grant someone, what turned out to be their one last hold your loved ones close today,whisper in their ear,tell them how much u love them and that you'll always hold them dear.take time to say '' i'm sorry '' ''please forgive me'' ''thank u '' or it's ok..and if tomorrow never comes,you'll have no regrets about today..

I got this interesting quote from someone. well, sorry for the copy and paste, hopeful no copyright involved. This quote make me thinking a lot about my past time. Here, please enjoy yourself and make this a thought for today..

I always regret the day i left him. Its not because i left him but i hated it because i can't bring myself to love his weaknesses and love him for who he is. Love is all about understanding and yet i can't bring myself to understand him. Now that we have chosen our own path i still thinking about him..wondering how will  my life with him. Days with him was like summer with garden of flowers, the air is fresh and the river flowing smoothly. Somehow, time change the way we think..we have our own thought and we fought and we hurt each others' feeling. That time i was wondering if we really care about each other. I keep thinking and i decided that we cannot be like this forever. So i left. Life going round but my mind always thinking about you and me. I'm sorry i can't be perfect for you..i can't be more good for you. I love you but i can't accept you for who you are..i'm not the one for you, i'm not ready yet. I'm sorry, its not you..its me. I blamed you for every fault and yet its mine. You accept all the blame and i'm sorry that i never says "i'm sorry". I thank God that we still can be friend..and it is an amazing friendship. Some people said that an ex-boyfriend or ex-girlfriend can't be friend. says who? We shared this amazing friendship. I couldn't asking for more than defending our friendship. Somehow, should someone dislike this friendship..don't bother to defend me any longer. You have every right to let go of this friendship. Its okay if you have to go away and its okay if you finally found someone else. Its okay and its alright.. all i wants is you being well and happy beside someone who can love you better than me. There,there Jess..its time to move on.